Unconditional Love: Because it Feels Good
One of the most important things I can share with you, my darling, is the power of unconditional love for yourself and all the people in your life. Unconditional love doesn’t mean self-sacrifice, or condoning, or approving of behaviors or beliefs that are in line with your own.
Unconditional love is a gift you give yourself on the daily because it feels so amazing to feel love and to project it out into the universe.
Love is a feeling, the movement of energy, of vibration in your body. Love is a felt sensation. Each of us has our own understanding of what love looks and feels like that comes generally from early childhood. Our autonomic nervous systems get established ages 0 to 3 or so, and so too our root chakras where our sense of safety and stability reside. That takes form and shape ages 0 to around 7, and our attachment styles also tend to form in childhood, early adolescence.
So, for many of us, our ideas of what unconditional love, loving, and being loved looks and feels like comes from those early childhood experiences, and the thought stories we tell about unconditional love now as adults. For example, I grew up with a lot of codependency stories and thought that trying to manage other people’s lives for them, doing things for them that they could do for themselves, putting myself last, trying to keep others happy instead of making myself happy, that these were ways of showing love.
I am so happy, overjoyed really, to have learned other ways to love, show love, and feel unconditional love. We don’t love people because of what they do or don’t do for us. Whether they meet some certain criteria of lovability, and not because of their actions either. Not because they’re taller, short, smarter, witty. Not because they do or don’t take out the garbage, or get you flowers, or whatever else may be on your list.
We love people, places, and things because of our thoughts about them, which create that feeling of safety and security in your body.
That feels like unconditional love. It’s never a person’s actions or inactions that lead you to love them. It’s your stories about what their behavior means to you.
If you think that someone bringing you flowers is a love worthy act, you’ll feel love. If you have allergies, or don’t like the carbon footprint, or human cost of the current flower trade, well, then you are unlikely to feel more love for someone because they bring or send you flowers.
What you are looking for, you’ll find. If you’re looking for reasons to love yourself or others, you’ll find them, and vice versa. If you decide that someone is annoying, or frustrating, or whatever, if those are your thoughts about them, then everything they do will continue to grate on you, annoying you, and ruining your morning because of your thoughts that that person is terrible.
When thinking about how different experiences and acts that one might think is loving and one might think is not, it brings up an example from my own life. Some years ago, I dated someone whose love language was giving gifts. My historical love language as it were, has been acts of service.
This ex of mine didn’t quite get it and was always bringing home very thoughtful gifts, and I could appreciate them. I’m not a jerk you all, but they didn’t make me feel more love because I wasn’t thinking about those actions as love actions.
So, I could feel these multiple emotions at once. Like love in general for this human, annoyance that certain tasks weren’t getting done, and neutral about the gifts. Whereas someone else for whom gifts equal love could be like, “Wow, I feel so much love right now because you brought me home this amazing garlic press.”
So, I was where I was in my growth a decade ago. This human would bring home gifts and wouldn’t do the task that I, in my mind, associate with love. Acts of service, taking out the garbage, emptying the dishwasher.
Let’s think about someone you love who hasn’t done a darn thing for you in the world. Yes, I’m thinking about kittens, or puppies, or a newborn human. Picture one of those creatures, one of those little animals.
What did that animal, that human, that baby of another animal species, what did they do to earn your unconditional love, to prove themselves lovable? Literally nothing, right? They actually probably peed on you, or barfed on your shoulder, or pooped in your shoe, and yet you and I feel so much unconditional love for them. You feel that love because you are thinking, “I love you, tiny creature.”
I can feel a swell of love in my heart for these beings and these things because I’m having the thought that they are lovable.
So, I feel that love in every cell of my body. When it feels hard to love someone, when they constantly get under your skin as it were, when you keep having the same repeated judgmental thoughts about someone or decide that you want to stop loving them because of an action or a statement of theirs. All of that is coming from a cognitive fallacy, an incorrect understanding about what love is and what it means to love someone.
Your love does benefit the world, the universe, all of humanity, and acting in a loving way towards someone is a gift. Absolutely.
But thinking someone has to earn or deserve your unconditional love. My sweet one, that is wrong thinking.
It doesn’t serve you because you loving someone has nothing to do with that, but rather with your own desire to feel love for your own benefit in your mind, body, and spirit. Not for that.
So, why choose love? Why bother? Well, the number one reason is because love feels amazing. Love is one of the most magnificent emotions any of us can feel. Take a little breath. Put a hand on your heart and think about someone or something you love. A friend, a partner, a family member, a baby penguin you saw on the internet.
Notice what happens in your body. Pretty amazing, right? I feel like this warmth in my chest, this openness in my throat, my head feels light. Love feels great.
In your relationships, literally all of them, that feeling of unconditional love is always available to you. Truly.
You can love the post office worker, the barista you don’t know, the person next to you on the elliptical at the gym, someone who did something hurtful in your past.
So, often we decide not to feel that wellspring of love and compassion that is within us, and my darling, it just doesn’t make any sense to me anymore. I used to walk around the world quite grumpy, which may feel hard to believe if you know me now. I was very protective, very guarded.
I had been through a lot, and I was expecting the world to do me wrong. Since I’ve realized that I have the choice to always feel love, well, why would I not want to feel love towards someone or something? Why would I deny myself that delicious feeling that’s always possible?
I want to feel love always, even and maybe especially for folks I’ve had challenging or painful experiences with in the past. I know this is challenging. I get it. Just keep breathing.
We are most able to feel unconditional love for ourselves and others when our nervous systems are in the ventral vagal state.
So, this is part of the parasympathetic system and the ventral vagus nerve runs along the front of our mammalian bodies and is always looking and listening for safety.
When we get those signs of safety we’re on the lookout for, we relax. We’re able to let down our defenses and to allow for connection with self and others, to open up our hearts. Think for a moment about when you’re telling a judgmental, blaming, or shaming story about someone else, complaining about someone using adjectives that we might call negative.
When you’re telling a story from a place of emotional childhood, such as “He’s a jerk. Oh, she ruined everything. I would be X if only they hadn’t done Y to me. I’m not feeling love for her because of what she said yesterday,” or, “Yeah, I’m not feeling love for him because he doesn’t do his chores. I’m always cleaning up after him.”
This bi-directional process that happens with our thoughts, and our bodies, our neurological state. They feed into each other, and understanding this, we can use one to support and shift the other.
See, it’s hard to feel unconditional love when your thoughts aren’t loving, and when you’re scared, or defensive, or protective, it’s hard to feel love or to think loving thoughts as well.
Ruminating on those upsetting thoughts keeps you in that neurological state, dorsal vagal shutdown, or sympathetic fight or flight.
The states where your digestion hormone, the immune system, the thyroid, mood aren’t doing the tasks you want them to do. The thriving tasks, not just the surviving tasks. So, we can shift our neurological state to shift our story, and then we can shift the story to shift our sensations, our emotions, our feelings, all for the benefit of your perfect physical health and mental wellness.
Isn’t that so amazing? Choosing love benefits you on all planes, mind, body, and spirit.
There’s actually quite a bit of science, like literature and evidence, that shows that a loving kindness meditation practice supports improvements in blood pressure, pulse rate, in all of these different markers of human wellness.
How mind blowing is that? What a gift.
You get to feel love whenever you want to. Nothing that anyone does or doesn’t do can ever deny you that feeling, which is phenomenal news. You get to choose how you feel about other people. That is, you never have to feel disappointment, anger, frustration.
Those are optional feelings and the result of your own powerful thoughts. They will likely come up, certainly, you’re a human, and you get to feel them because that’s what we do in this family. We feel all the feels, pushing none away. You get to feel them, and then decide if you want to keep feeling them. You get to decide if they serve you. If given a choice, most of us would choose to feel love towards someone over any other emotion. Yet, so often, we don’t consciously choose to feel love.
We allow our habitual thoughts to go to those judgmental states about how others have wronged or failed us, and to stay in the feelings those thoughts provoke.
See, every time you dislike someone, you grump at or about them, we are choosing that feeling, and it doesn’t feel good, and it’s a choice. Your brain may be saying it isn’t, that their actions make them someone you cannot feel love or compassion for. I just don’t agree with that because I want to feel amazing.
When I step back and recognize that I never have to have judgmental or negative thoughts about someone, that is profoundly empowering. That is the work of managing your mind, recognizing that you do always have a choice in the thoughts you’re going to think on repeat and create the way you feel.
As always, feminism first, which means that I honor and respect you and your choices for your own life. I’m not here to convince you of a darn thing. I’m just sharing my opinion. If you want to feel hate, or anger, or disappointment, or frustration towards someone instead of love and compassion, then you go right on ahead, my darling. Do it. See how it feels.
We’re all in different stages of our processing, of our healing, and if you still feel anger at someone for something from the past, you get to feel it for as long as you want to. When you want to choose love, you get to do that. Remember, you can feel them both at once.
You can say, “I choose to feel unconditional love for this human while still having anger about their actions.”
As you grow, and heal, and change, you can watch and see how that balance shifts. It’s been amazing in my life. While it’s always available to you to choose love, or hate, or anger, your choice not to feel love is only hurting you.
A lot of us think that when we love someone, it somehow benefits that person directly. Like you’re giving a gift to someone who’s bad or doesn’t deserve it, and that will somehow take something away from you. We then get locked into the idea that we can’t love that person because of what they did. They don’t deserve that from us.
But we don’t love other people for them. We do it because it’s healing, and beautiful, and amazing for our own selves and for the collective unconscious.
I don’t feel love for my exes for their benefit. I do it for mine. They’re off wherever they are living their own lives. They may never think of me or they may think of me in a negative light. All of that is okay.
When they come to mind for me, I choose to think loving thoughts because why not? I can name and own my part in the mutual harms that may have occurred in our relationship. Absolutely. That’s emotional adulthood, and I’m not going to pretend I’m happy or positive vibes only kind of energy about an ex of mine who cheated on me.
I don’t lie to myself. So, I’m not like, “That was perfect, and amazing, and great, and I loved it all.” But I’m also not out here to stay mad about it. I can and have done the work to heal from those relationships and their endings, and it’s a process, not a one and done.
I can recognize that those relationships aren’t the right one for me now but served me then. That they were then painful and intense lessons, and for that, I can choose to not look back with rancor, or anger, or anything other than love for myself, myself and that other human, that person I dated.
I choose love because I want to feel love in my life today. By doing so, I can repair it, those previously hurt parts of myself today, in the present moment, the only moment that’s real and tangible. Every time I choose love in my life, I choose to feel that, that is actively healing and repairing myself.
An objection I often hear to this idea of loving all the world is based in scarcity thinking versus abundance.
A lot of our suffering comes from denying ourselves the feeling of love because we’re afraid of losing it. Afraid the other person will leave us, cheat on us, break up with us, not be our friend or our lover anymore, that they’ll die, or fire me, or whatever your fear is, often some form of abandonment.
I want to say there is unlimited love to go around, and love is never lost. Someone can break up with you, and you can still love them. Have you ever felt that one? Oh, I sure have. Someone can die, and you can still love them. I’ve definitely felt that one both personally and as a former hospice nurse.
Trying not to love someone, not allowing yourself to fully feel love for another person because you want to somehow protect yourself or not put your heart at risk, it doesn’t serve you because you can always choose to feel love.
Your feeling love for another person has nothing to do with them and their choices with whether they love you back or not. How relieving is that?
I find this whole concept to be a huge exhale. No one has to prove their love to me. I just get to choose to love them. Likewise, I never have to prove myself worthy of anyone else’s love. I just get to be my weird, little, witchy, nerd, Leo self, and if someone wants to choose to love me, then that’s a great. While also recognizing that they’re loving their own thoughts about me.
If someone wants to choose a different thought about me to not like or love me, then that’s theirs to think and feel. It literally does nothing to me because I’m not thinking or feeling it. They are. Another common objection I hear is this, “They hurt me, so I can’t love them,” or, “They have political thoughts or stances that I find repulsive. They’re a terrible person. I can’t love them,” and other thoughts in the same vein.
I want to be so clear here before I say anything else, that loving someone, holding love for another human being because they are a human part of this universe, is not the same as condoning their statements, actions, views, etc. It’s not aligning yourself with them in those ways. Let me say clearly, I’m not ever saying that abuse, hatred, violence are okay, or that you need to love someone’s choices to be abusive, or violent, or hateful.
Oh, Dios Santo. Nope. Not at all. Never. I’m really just talking about choosing to love the human themselves.
This is about a Metta practice, the Buddhist practice of loving kindness, choosing to love all the world because love is possible in your heart. That’s the work here, and that’s the invitation.
By doing so, by feeling more love for yourself in the world, you’re reparenting, nourishing, nurturing the parts of you that were once hurt, and you’re rewriting that hurtness in your life.
The lens of love can be a powerful healing lens, and the more love you put out, the more you can see yourself loving someone else because you are a vessel of love, not because of them.
Then it is more evident to your own mind that you too are inherently lovable just because you exist.
Again, you don’t have to share time or space with anyone. You can keep your distance, set healthy boundaries, etc., and you can choose to love them, and love feels better than anger or hate. I’m reminded of the Maya Angelou quote, “Hate. It has caused a lot of problems in the world but has not solved one yet.”
Again, if anger or whatever not-love feeling is working for you, and it truly in a real way feels good in your body, go for it. But for many of us, anger and not-love is a dead end thought and feeling that keeps us stuck operating from a place and an energy that doesn’t feel good, that doesn’t serve us, that leads us into burnout. From being able to continue to be part of the activism, or the education, or the other whatever work motivates and drives you in this world. Fueling it with something other than love, maybe fuel that’s not sustainable.
Loving someone doesn’t mean you condone or support their beliefs, or behaviors, or pretend that challenging things didn’t happen. Not at all.
Because it’s not loving to lie to yourself or others. It does mean that you’re choosing not to spend your time and energy hating them, being angry at them, or ruminating about what a jerk they are because that only harms you. Other people don’t feel your feelings. So, your anger and hatred have no impact on them, but they do impact you, and it’s you I want you to focus on first, my darling.
Feeling love feels so amazing, and I want that for you. Your homework, my nerdlet, is to notice your language, your thoughts about the challenging people in your life, and the feeling those thoughts create in your body. While you’re working on that, I’ll remind you that we must attend to both body and mind together.
So, before you start jumping to trying to think a new loving thought, hold space for the hurt or the annoyance, get clear on why you want to choose unconditional love.
My reason is because it feels amazing. Also, remember that just thinking the new thought, like trying to jump to that before really processing the hurt, the anger, the sorrow through your body, is a form of spiritual and emotional bypassing, and I’m never here for that either.
Feel your feels, babe. Feel them all the way through, and before you try to pick that new thought, engage and recruit your nervous system to support your goal of feeling, connection and peace in your body. So, before you start to work on your thoughts to bring more love in, do a little body scan, orient yourself to your surroundings and yourself, and find your way into that ventral vagal place, and that place of feeling safe and secure with yourself. Connect with a loved one or a pet, if that helps.
Thank you for taking the time to read Feminist Wellness. I’m excited to be here and to help you take back your health!
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