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Ep #238: How to Be the Cake & Let Everyone Else Be the Icing

Feminist Wellness with Victoria Albina | How to Be the Cake & Let Everyone Else Be the Icing

I’ve been looking for new and creative ways to revisit the topics I’ve covered here on the podcast, so I asked my Anchored folks what their favorites have been. The winner was an episode from a year and a half ago all about being the cake, and whether this is brand new to you or a timely reminder, it’s important we consider this for ourselves again.

So, what on Earth does being the cake even mean? From our emotional outsourcing habits, we tend to look for other people to be the main attraction in our lives, to save us, to be and do what we need, when really, no one else can but us. So this week, I’m inviting you to let everyone else in your life be the icing to the perfect cake that is you.

Join me on this episode to learn the importance of embodying your cakefulness, and how waiting for someone else to be your cake might be the root cause of your relational pain. You’ll hear why you are the main dessert, how to let everyone else be a delightful addition, and why your whole life can change in every possible way when you step into being the cake.


 

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What You’ll Learn:

What’s happening when you’re hoping for someone else to be the main attraction in your life.

Why you’ll likely be disappointed if you’re looking for someone else to be the cake.

The telltale signs of uncakeful living.

Why no one else can be the cake for you.

Examples of what cakeful living looks like.

What happens when you show up as your most cakeful self.

How to allow other people to be the icing, not the main dessert.

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Full Episode Transcript:

This is Feminist Wellness, and I’m your host, Nurse Practitioner, Functional Medicine expert, and life coach, Victoria Albina. I’ll show you how to get unstuck, drop the anxiety, perfectionism, and codependency so you can live from your beautiful heart. Welcome, my love; let’s get started.

Hello, Hello my love when I hope this finds you doing so well. I've been thinking a lot about the fact that we've been on this podcast together, you and I, for an awfully long time. I've been thinking about how fun it is to be creative and coming up with new ways of talking about things, ways that work for my brain, and hopefully work for yours.

So, I asked the folks in Anchored what one of their favorites of my new metaphors, new way of talking about things, they loved the most. Okay, that was mas o menos English, like half English, but hopefully you followed the gist. So many of them said, it's the concept of “being the cake” and letting everyone else be your icing.

And so, I thought it was high time that we share that episode again. It's from April 2022, quite a while ago at this point. Oh my, can you even believe it’s September? This is wild times. How is it September 2023, geez Louise?

I love this episode. I love this concept. It has been so helpful for me in my life, to be like, “Is that a cake choice? Am I really being the cake? If I do that, if I say that, if I don't do that, if I don't say that, am I being the cake? Am I asking someone else to be the cake? Am I making me the icing?” What are you up to kitten? Are you minding your cakefulness? Always mind your cakefulness.

Okay, thank you for tuning in. I'm so grateful you're here. Thank you for listening to Feminist Wellness. I pour so much of my heart into this program, I hope you can tell. And, I just wanted to thank you. Thanks for being here. Thanks for being alive and being born. Thanks for being you. Has anyone told you you're wonderful and important and cakefull today? If not, I'd like to be the first, because you are all those things.

So, thanks for listening. And without further ado, me, from a year and a half ago. Here is past me to support present you. Take it away, past me.

Hello, hello my love. I hope this finds you doing so well. If you are a frequent listener to the show, then you know that I love a good metaphor, and this week is no different.

Today, I want to talk about a saying I came up with some years ago around relationships. As always, that can mean dating or partnerships, friendships, work-spouse relationship, parent-child. And that is this, I want to invite you to be the cake, and to let everyone else in your life be the icing on the perfect cake that is you.

If you are looking for someone else to be the cake, my love, you’re likely to be disappointed and permanently chasing someone and something else, because no one else can be the cake for you. So, what on earth am I talking about?

Well, first, let me say, if you don’t like cake, that’s fine. Sub in pie or dulce leche, facturas. Facturas are Argentine pastry. They’re so amazing. Sub in whatever you prefer. Listen to this and say to yourself, be the tender ravioli. You know I love that option.

Honestly, really, I’m more steak than cake, but “be the steak” doesn’t have the same ring to it, so here we go with “be the cake.” My darling, we often enter into relationships from our codependent and people-pleasing habits with the desire for that other person to fill a gaping hole in our hearts and our lives. The place where our sense of self could be.

We want them to do and be something for us that we are not doing or being for ourselves first. We are often looking for someone to complete us. To be that magical other half that we are taught we’re lacking. Which, by the way, is just utter b.s. You are perfect and whole and magical just as you are, my darling. No one can complete you because you’re already complete.

When you are grounded in an embodied sense of self… When you know yourself cognitively, meaning you use thought work, you know your own habitual thought patterns, your attachment style habits, your conditioned ways of being…

And when you know yourself somatically; you know the nervous system state your body tends to go to and how you can both regulate yourself and ask for co-regulation from others in a calm and centered way, knowing that you can regulate your nervous system… When you are showing up in your fullest weirdness, your true authenticity…

When you’re unapologetically you, then you are “being the cake.” You know you’re utterly delicious. You know you are the prize. You know you are to be cherished and honored and delighted in. And you have space to allow others to be your icing, to honor them and delight in them. You know in your bones that you, yes, you, are the main dessert. You are the cake to end all cakes.

Everyone else is a delightful addition to your life, your day, your world. Not the main attraction. See where we’re going here? When you are looking for someone else to be the cake in your life, you're looking for someone to prove your worth to you.

“If I date someone tall and handsome or rich and powerful and successful, or a professional llama trainer, then I will feel good about myself. They’ll validate me. They will make me feel whole and worthy, worthwhile. They’ll do the emotional heavy lifting for my sense of sense, for my self-esteem.

I won’t have to, because I’ll know that they are in the cake role in my life and I can continue to operate from my codependent story that other people need to tell me that I’m important, good enough, lovable, worthy, instead of just knowing it myself. Instead of trusting it and believing it.”

We know what that leads to, my darling. Resentment, painful conflict, the self-abandonment cycle, living from our wild and often unvoiced expectations and how-to guides for other humans; Episode 20. All of which keep us trapped in our codependent and people-pleasing cycles.

Whenever your internal story is about how someone else can complete you, that is often the root cause of your relational pain and struggle. Asking or demanding and expecting that someone else be the cake, the starring role in your life, that’s setting up a real lousy time for you and the other person because no one else can be the cake for you.

You will never show up as your fullest cake self if you are using the other person to make your life feel more valid. If you’re telling the story “you complete me,” you are setting yourself up to fear losing them. And so, you manipulate and control without realizing it.

You people please, you play games, you play at being the person you want them to be, and being the person you think they want you to be. Shapeshifting, chameleoning, not being you fully. We show up as not our true selves, and we tell the story that our value and worth depends on someone else’s approval of us.

All of this begs the question, how to know when you are not being the cake. Well, you are not being the cake when you feel graspy. When you feel that your mental health, wellness, care, depends on someone else; their whims, thoughts, feels about you. When the internal barometer of your okayness is in their hands, you are not being the cake, my love.

Another sign you’re not being the cake is when you crave compliments, and find yourself fishing for them instead of just knowing you’re amazing and trusting it somatically, deep in your body and your mind.

Listen, mis amores, I’m a Leo Argentine femme. I’m out here for a compliment, and that is not a problem. Compliment my hair, I already know it’s fabulous. If you don’t compliment it, that’s fine. I may question your judgment and ask you to get your eyes checked, but I’m not going to take it personally.

I love a compliment but I don’t need it. I love external validation but I don’t need it. And because I love it but don’t need it, I don’t need to manipulate or control other people in any way to get them to say what I want to hear about my looks, my body, my work, my content, my smarts, my anything.

Come on, how often do we make self-derogatory comments to try to get people to turn around and say the thing we want to hear, to feel okay? I see you. You are not being the cake when you hint at what you want, or when you’re being indirect or passive aggressive, instead of stating your wants and preferences.

We love to hint at what we want instead of saying it. Then we get resentful when we don’t get what we didn’t ask for. Because we expect the other person to read our mind the way we constantly try to read everyone else’s mind, so we can attempt to stay one step ahead of their needs because we look at everyone else as our cake.

Then we do the self-abandonment dance once more, and then it sucks for you and everyone in your world when you don’t get what you want. You lash out, collapse inward, or spiral into shame and blame, feeling bad about yourself, unappreciated, and rejected.

Let’s zoom out my love, and take a look at some telltale signs of uncakefull living. First up, fishing for compliments instead of just dead-up saying, “Hey babe, tell me I look hot in this.” Feeling insecure more than you feel secure and grounded in yourself. Phrasing it that way feels important for me because it’s normal, natural, and human to feel insecure here and there. It’s all about the balance.

Manipulating and controlling others so you, or they, get the outcome you think is best. Staying in a relationship with someone when you’re not really happy and it doesn’t feel so good because you secretly, or not so secretly, think you can’t do better. Or because you think there’s something wrong with you.

Demanding attention. Not accepting compliments. Not receiving love, care, or kindness because you’re so outwardly focused. Taking things personally and making things about you from your insecurity. Being offended easily or hurt all the time. Blowing things out of proportion. Not taking personal responsibility, aka living in emotional childhood. Blaming others for your emotional state; Episodes 22 and 23.

Believing and expecting that someone else is going to rescue you from your life. Living your life to please others. Not allowing yourself to rest. Taking up all the air in the room because you’re uncomfortable with silence or others being on stage. People pleasing instead of “you pleasing.” Prioritizing other people’s lives, wants, and needs, instead of living from an ethos of mutuality and reciprocity.

Hearing all of that, I pretty much just redefined codependent living, didn’t I? It’s a most uncakefull way of being. Some examples of cakefull living, and of course, this too is a far from exhaustive list, but first up, is living from interdependence, the opposite of codependence.

Having healthy, loving boundaries that are stated, that are flexible, and that are said without guilt or shame. You do this for your good, and the good of those you love and are in community with. For more on boundaries, see Episodes 5 and 41.

When you are living cakefully, you take up an appropriate amount of space in any setting. I get it, when this is new it can feel really confusing to know what that is. So, it’s something you really get to feel into from your heart, from your body. Because when you’re cakefull, you don’t have to take up tons of space, because you don’t have to prove anything.

You just know you are cakefull and you live it. When you are cakefull, you are emotionally mature, have somatic awareness of yourself and your body, you live with embodiment. You prioritize your biological impulses and needs. Meaning you eat, drink water, and pee when you need to, even if it isn’t always convenient for others.

You are self-assured and confident. You give yourself the grace when you don’t feel fully self-confident, because again, that is human. Giving ourselves the grace is most cakefull indeed. You feel the difference in your body between co-regulating with someone else, attuning your nervous systems for the common good, and making someone else responsible for your emotions.

When you live in a space of freedom and empowerment, not dependent on others to feel good about yourself. When you know your internal limits. That is to say, you notice you’re irritable, for example, and instead of causing harm, lashing out, grumbling at someone, jabbing at them, you remove yourself from the situation and attend to yourself.

Of course, when you don’t do that, you give yourself the grace as well, and you apologize for any harmful or negative impact in the world; which we talked all about in the apologizing mini-series, Episodes 72 to 75. You are accepting of yourself and others just how you all are, and don’t think others need to change for you, or them, to be happy.

To that end, you don’t try to fix others. You don’t try to fix your feelings, aka you don’t buffer against your feelings; Episode 14. Instead, you know how to feel them. Because you use the tools I teach here every week, and in Anchored, where we dive deep into feeling our feelings somatically, learning these tools, and we do it for six delightful months because this work takes time, my love.

As your most cakefull self, you are thoughtful of others, loving, and kind, while also knowing that taking care of you, “me first, you second,” with love, is not a bad and selfish framework for living. It’s a mutually beneficial one, that cares for everyone in your world because self-care is a form of resentment prevention.

You do let your nervous system rest through conscious distraction; Episode 105. You don’t martyr yourself to try to gain love, control, approval, or acceptance. You take loving care of yourself. Take time, you make the time, to do your thought work so you can manage your mind instead of spinning in confusion, drama, overwhelm, stress, and anxiety.

You don’t project your worries or concerns onto others. You don’t need to second-guess everything. You take others at their word. You trust yourself and your intuition, your discernment. You trust yourself to have your back, and you trust yourself to love yourself, and the people in your life, unconditionally.

All in all, being cakefull is learning how to regulate your perfect nervous system. Because so many of these cakefull traits and activities, they’re challenging when our nervous systems are dysregulated. When we don’t know what nervous system state we’re in, or how to bring ourselves back. Which is why I talk so much, yes, about thought work, and so much about somatics and the importance of healing our nervous system, which is what we do day after day in Anchored.

I’ve also got to pause here to say, as you know, dear darling listener, I do this show because I lived a very uncakefull life for a very long time. Most of my life, in fact. To put it elegantly, it sucked. I wanted each new date to be my cake, each new friend, each diploma, each certification, each training course I took, each new city.

Time after time, I was disappointed, dejected, resentful because I didn’t realize what I was doing. I wanted someone else to save me from managing my own mind, from feeling my feelings, and processing them through my body, from making my decisions and potentially failing at creating the life I dreamt of.

It was only once I realized that I was doing all of that, that I was asking others, often demanding, that others be my cake for me that I started to turn my life and my health around. That I started to heal my perfect inner children, and my digestion and adrenals too. Started to regulate my nervous system, and stop looking for others to validate me and prove my worth to me.

That’s when my whole life changed for the better in every possible way. When I realized I need to be my cake, and started looking to everyone else in my life to be the icing. So, let’s talk about icing.

Icing is really great. It’s extra, added deliciousness on an already perfect and dreamy cake. It’s really fun to have someone be your icing when you just want them to be icing. It’s really a lot to try to make someone else your cake. But when you want them to be icing, everything changes. It’s light and fun and easy and sexy, when appropriate.

When you are the cake and they are the icing, then you are defining you. The partnership isn’t defining you; they aren’t defining you. Which is an important shift for us because we tend to define ourselves by external things, like who we’re dating, who our friends are, et cetera.

It’s so much easier to accept your partner’s foibles and all when they’re the icing. Someone to unconditionally love; remember, that is your partner’s job; and not someone in your life who’s in this role they likely didn’t agree to. To complete you and validate you and meet your every desire. Or to be the person whose desires you always meet because you’re always over-functioning. Or if they’re someone you want to change so you can be happy and you can feel like an important little fixer.

It’s so much easier to unconditionally love them when the relationship isn’t carrying the weight of your self-esteem and self-concept. Which also means you can stop taking everything so personally and can let others be themselves; the way you can let you be you now.

When you’re certain in your cakedom, then you fear conflict less. When something isn’t aligned or working for you, it’s so much easier to address it because you’re not taking it personally. You’re not making it about your personhood or their personhood. It’s just about the flavor of icing they’re being, and whether that goes with your current flavor of cakeness.

When you are after them to be the cake, then, them being human, aka not being perfect, will get right on under your skin. The things that bother you get magnified. The conversation’s not just, “Hey babe, please don’t leave your socks in the living room.” Instead, when you’re asking them to be your cake, their tendency to leave hosiery on the sofa becomes about disrespect, about them not listening to or not loving you, and this whole intense story about you and your worth gets attached.

But when your partner is the icing and you know you’re the cake, then it’s so much easier for it to just be about their socks or the dishes or whatever. When those little things add up to you not feeling seen, not feeling taken care of, and you’ve reflected inward and you know you’re being the cake and this just isn’t in alignment anymore, it’s so much easier to walk away.

When you develop the intimate relationship with yourself that allows you to be the cake, your own cake, it allows for a deeper intimacy with others. You have a self-awareness that you can share and bring. You are also free from the stories, the narratives, the shapeshifting, and people pleasing that can get in the way of deeper intimacy.

When you’re the cake you’re your most authentic self and that allows for deeper vulnerability and connection. And listen, a deep rich chocolate ganache cake does not care if you think it’s too fudgy. It’s not sitting around comparing itself to carrot cake. I mean, I love carrot cake, don’t get me wrong.

But my point is chocolate cake doesn’t care if you don’t like chocolate cake. Because it is self-confident, not because it needs to write people off. It simply knows that it is a wonderful cake and that you get to have your own preferences.

Chocolate cake knows there’s room for all cakes to be important in the world. And when someone else wants a different cake, that’s all about their own preferences and has nothing to do with you. All cakes have value. All cakes are lovable for the people who love that kind of cake.

Listen, a gluten full, wheat-based, chocolate cake is not trying to hang out with someone with celiac. Chocolate cake doesn’t take it personally if you’re diabetic or if you just don’t like cake. When we are not being the cake and someone we’re into, or someone we’re not even really into much at all, breaks up with us, ghosts us after a date, has some criticism of us, doesn’t like the way we’re doing something, oh my goodness, it feels like the end of time and space.

When you are being the cake, you are emotionally available. You are emotionally generous. You’re able to take criticism. You’re able to take feedback. And you only want to date people who are emotionally available, can take feedback, and who want to date you.

When you are the cake, you’re interested in people who are also the cake in their own lives and who are interested in you being their icing. From your cakeness, you are not interested in people who are not available for mutuality and reciprocity. You’re out here to hang with folks who can be each other’s icing. Cakes know their worth and hang out with people who know it, too.

I want to share a little example of cakeness in action. I was talking to my friend Jules, who is a butch lesbian, and we’ve been talking about this concept together for years. So, I asked her how being the cake has changed her life.

She shared, and I will quote her here, “I thought my being a butch dyke was a problem. That I was unattractive. That my gender presentation was a problem. Society told me in a lot of ways that I was not lovable or attractive. I seldom see myself reflected back to me in our culture, and in fact, sometimes society is openly hostile towards me.”

“But when I realized that I was the cake, I was able to believe for myself that I’m attractive, that I’m a catch. It wasn’t until I took my life back and really focused on loving myself that I could embrace my reality, that I’m hot and desirable no matter what other people think. That it’s a gift to date me, to be my friend, to know me.”

“And lo and behold, it turns out there’s a whole segment of folks who agree; mostly femmes in Brooklyn, let’s be real. Turns out there’s icing out there for a butch lesbian. It’s okay that I’m not everyone’s flavor. That gives me so much freedom, not just in dating, but in life as a whole.” Thanks so much for that Jules, and thanks for being the cake that you are. I love you, buddy. I’m so grateful to know you.

Another amazing story about being the cake and stepping into your cakeness, is my client in Anchored, Bethany. She wanted to launch a podcast but was scared about what others would think of her, which of course, is normal and human. What happens for us from our codependency, our perfectionism, our people pleasing, is that we allow being scared of other people’s thoughts to outweigh our doing what we want to for our lives. We let it get in the way of our cakey-ness.

So, we coached through this in our weekly Anchored coaching call for several weeks. We worked through things like imposter syndrome. Caring more about what others think of her than her own opinion. We worked through self-doubt.

We did a lot of somatic work with her inner children so they felt comfortable knowing that she would have their backs, and wouldn’t abandon her if people didn’t love her work. That she would still love up on herself, no matter what was the promise she made them. Eventually, her inner children believed her, and she believed her.

She knows now that she is fabulous and amazing and has so much to give. That she is the cake and she will look to her listeners to be the icing, nothing more. Not to prove a darn thing to her because she knows it. Of course, her show is getting rave reviews. Of course, it is. She’s such a cake and she knows it.

My beloved, as long as you are in the codependent habit trap, everyone else’s opinions and responses to you are grist for the mill of beating yourself up because you’re not being your own cake. So, that’s the work. To name and celebrate the things that make you the most amazing and delicious cake in the world, and to see where you’re making others your cake.

To see where you’re trying to be the cake for them, to pull back, and to give yourself the assurance, love, care, kindness, gentleness, compassion, acceptance, and love that makes for cakefull living. And to allow others to be their own cake. To respect them enough to not try to solve their life for them, but to let them figure out what the most perfect expression of their cakey-ness is for them.

From there, you can let others be your icing, and you can show up to unconditionally love the people in your world as their icing. As your own cake, please do enjoy the icing. Just remember to run a little check, the way we always do, and ask yourself: Are you asking the other person do your emotional work for you? Because that’s a cake’s job to do for themselves, okay?

Or are you just appreciating being appreciated? If it’s the latter, good for you, my darling. It’s so nice to be loved up on, to get some icing. Let yourself revel a bit in others’ appreciation, knowing that you don’t need it to be truly okay and solid with yourself. You can take it in and enjoy it for all the delightful icing-ness that it is, you magnificent cake you.

My darling, take some time today to celebrate you. To look at and honor the places where there’s growth to be had, right? Where you can shift your habitual stories in mind, body, and spirit, so you can step into more cakefulness. But please, above all, no blaming, no shaming, no guilting, no feeling bad about not yet being in the fullest expression of your cakey-ness. Honor the places where you are the cake, and name the places where you want to grow. Remember, that cake is freaking magical, just like you.

If you’re ready to learn the skills and the tools to step into your biggest, most favorite, cakey you, then look no further. Anchored, my six-month program, is the place to learn how to celebrate and honor you. The place to learn how to stop looking to others to be the cake for you, and to stop trying to be other people’s cake, so you can take in all the icing that life has to offer.

Anchored is a loving, kind community of like-minded humans who are dedicated to doing this work, to be their own cake, and to allow others to be their own. The work we do in Anchored is to drop the anxiety, the stress, the overwhelm, and to find our way back to ourselves to living the interdependent lives we’ve dreamt of. The lives where we take personal responsibility, have healthy boundaries, and honor our wants, needs, and desires.

You deserve the kind of loving care, the weekly coaching that you’ll get from me live, every single week in Anchored. The coaching that you’ll get from me over Slack, which is where we have our loving community; we’re not on Facebook, we’re on Slack. There, you can get coaching from me every single weekday for six months. Yes, you heard that right. Along with breathwork, somatic practices, all sorts of nervous system education.

I see that smile on your nerdy face, thinking about learning all about polyvagal theory and nervous system details from me, your fellow nerd. It’s an absolute delight, and I’d love to have you join us. Head on over to VictoriaAlbina.com/Anchored to apply now. It’s such a delight, and I cannot wait to share Anchored with you.

Alright my beauty, let’s do what we do. Gentle hand on your heart, should you feel so moved. Remember, you are safe, you are held, you are loved. When one of us heals, we help heal the world. Be well, my beautiful cake. I’ll talk to you soon.

Thank you for listening to this episode of Feminist Wellness. If you want to learn more all about somatics, what the heck that word means, and why it matters for your life, head on over to VictoriaAlbina.com/somaticswebinar for a free webinar all about it. Have a beautiful day my darling and I'll see you next week. Ciao.

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